Carnival Kid
“No, no! We need to go today!
It’s the haunted day. Its only today. Please mom!” said a young boy pulling his
mother’s hands.
“No Kunal. We can’t go today.
I’ll take you there tomorrow and even the day after; your aunt Maggie is
arriving tonight. We have to tend to her” she paused and looked at the boy
“don’t you want to meet aunt Maggie? She always brings nice gifts for you.”
“I can meet her later, at night.
But today is important. Please take me to the carnival. Please mother; Please
mom!” he knelt down and started sobbing.
Mom was not baffled of course!
She had been taking care of Kunal since he was tiny. Tantrums as these were a
mundane ordeal. “I’ll cook you Gajar ka Halwa if you obey me.” The sobs
went silent. Enticed by the name of the delectable treat he looked up to his
mother like a puppy looks to his own. Yes, the trick would have worked; mom had
the next line at the tip of her tongue, had Kunal’s father not slouched through
the window.
“Dad! Look! Help! Please take me
to the carnival today. I’ll do whatever you say. Mom will not take me” he
cried, now pulling his father’s sleeve.
“I’m too tired boy. I’ll take you
tomorrow. It’ll Sunday too!” he thumped down on the chintzy sofa.
“Wait Kunal, don’t you want the halwa?”
mother said slyly approaching the crooked table.
“No! I do not want the halwa!
I want to go to the carnival today!” the un-hackable trick had failed, “Always
at the wrong place at the wrong time” she murmured and left the room “You take
care of him now Yash!”
“Dad Please! I will take Tony out
for a walk everyday! I promise! Please take me out today. It’s the haunted day
– the haunted ride!”
Yash relaxed back into the mushy
pillow, looked at the room right across the dining hall and thought to himself
‘Shit! I forgot the lightbulb again. Suru will kill me today.’ He then leaned
forward, looked into little Kunal’s eyes and said, “If I take you out, do you
promise to never play football in the house again?”
“Yes! I promise! I will never do
it!”
Yash knew that the promise would
be broken soon, but men are simple; they live only in the moment, “Well go get
dressed then! You are getting us late now!”
“Yes!” Kunal exclaimed and rushed
to his room. “Kunal!” shouted his mother, but little did it scare him. “You are
spoiling him! We must now fulfil all his wishes. He should learn that people
don’t always get what they want!”
“He’s only twelve years old Suru!
Relax, he’s not going to run away tomorrow. You have an entire life to teach
him” he unbuttoned his shirt and went walked towards the bathroom.
Kunal and his father had
delectable Gajar ka Halwa before leaving for the Winter Carnival.
“Wait a minute” said Suru as she
waved the two off the house “You forgot the lightbulb, didn’t you?” she
shouted.
“Let’s go son” he pushed Kunal
into the car “I’ll get it on my way back” he screamed as he drove off.
In warm and immaculate clothes
the two drove across the Hauman Mandir, to the Lohapul and
finally to the St Agustin field, where Kunal’s dreamland awaited him. The
carnival was always set up in the month of November. The reason for it was
anyone’s guess. The Pujas in October would have ended and Christmas was
a long time away. Nevertheless, the Winter Carnival drew thousands of people
everyday! Some came for the delicious strawberry rossogolla and honey flavoured
Sandesh while others came to enjoy pure artistry in the form of plays
and musicals. Many of course came for the sheer joy of the rides.
At any point the 135 acre field
was bustling with colours of green, red and blue and every shade they could form.
The din coupled with the bright lights washed away the illusion of the night.
The perimeter was covered with stalls selling articles from books to fake human
body parts – who ever did buy them? The centre tent was the theatre for artists
and everyone looking for pleasant entrainment, and the remaining area was
covered with rides like the ‘The Colombus’ ‘The Break-dance’ ‘The Giant Ferris
Wheel’ and of course, ‘The Haunted Coaster’. Clowns and vendors of candy moved
across the place and quite surprisingly, there was always place for people to
move about freely.
Yash parked the car close to the
main entrance. He was lucky enough to find a spot there. They got off the car
“Now, you will always be holding my hand. Never ever leave it. It is very
crowded inside” he also cautioned Kunal about the scoundrels that kidnapped
kids and forced them to beg on the streets of faraway cities. Kunal nodded in
agreement.
“Ok. Let us go now. I don’t want
to miss the haunted coaster tonight.”
They got in line; Kunal still held
his father’s hand. Gleeful, but cautious of the scoundrels, he doubted the old
man that smiled to him from far away. They got the tickets and moved away from
the line.
“The counter guys told me that
the haunted coaster is open all throughout the period of the carnival. You told
me it was only today. Did you lie to me son?” he sternly asked Kunal.
“No” he said after a moment of
silence “The extremely haunted night is tonight. It’s the new moon. It will be
scarier today”
“No, that’s not how it works” he
said rubbing his forehead, but then he remembered about the commercial they had
watched a week ago. It was a gimmick to attract people at the night of the new
moon; and sadly, Kunal seemed to be a victim of it. ‘Oh, what does he know?
Just let it be’ he thought to himself. The he dusted off his beige creased
pants and sauntered to the main entrance gate.
That is where my memory faded.
Ah! Memories! The feature films of every man, where he himself is the hero. The
fact that so little is known about their existence has always intrigued me.
Isn’t it astonishing that you never remember them consciously, but they remain
dormant somewhere in the back of your head. Until an agent from the outside
world decides to trigger it. For me, this agent was the smell of fresh Gajar
ka Halwa as I stood outside the entrance gate, just as I did fourteen years
ago. Dad was not with me of course; he had grown too old for a carnival. In a
black, thick overcoat I stood outside taking in the aroma. Memories! You recall
nothing, but when one bubbles up, a floodgate opens somewhere and you are
surrounded by a mystical fog of joy, laughter or sadness.
Sixteen years is a long time and
many events, can take place in a long time. Enough to change your perception,
your wisdom and even your own existence. Something great was awaiting me
inside; I felt it. Just like I had felt it at the age of ten. With the golden
ticket in the cold hands, I walked towards the gate. The guard gently took away
my ticket and tore it into half, “You can go in now. Remember the exit is on
the other side. I have many idiots coming here to get out of the fare.”
“Ramesh da? Is that you? Look how
old you’ve grown” the guard looked in confusion; he squinched his eyes and
tried hard to recall my face. “It’s me. Kunal! Yash’s son!”
“Oh! Of course!” he said after
think for a while “When did you return? How are you? How’s that old man of
yours?” he laughed.
“Oh, he’s great. So am I” I said
as someone sighed from the line behind. I turned around, looked back at Ramesh
da and said, “It’s a busy evening for you. I will come to your house tomorrow
morning, along with dad”
“Yeah. That would be fine. Witty
as always” he said in that old accent of his. Kunal bid him farewell and walked
right in. Right before him stood the pink tent selling freshly made cotton
candy.
“Hello Uncle Albert!” I said with
my hands on the bamboo that made the stall.
“It’s Kunal, Dad!” said a young
man from behind. “Of course I remember him. He stole two packets of vanilla
candy from inside the stall years ago. Even today, look how he’s eying the one
kept at the corner!”
“I wouldn’t call it stealing. My
father paid for it after” I sighed.
“Oh, your father. Has he grown
too old to come and visit? Or does he only care about his round belly; always
nourishing it!” We laughed together and continued to talk for a while. I got
two packets of freshly prepared sweetness; the old man did not accept money
from me. Soon, I was jumping from stall to stall talking to the owners. Some
knew me, some didn’t. Many new stalls had been erected. The famous Balaji
Fast Food was replace by a dilapidated toy store. The density of clowns and
vendors had increased. There was no place for theatricals. The space was
occupied by gamblers and astrologers with all sorts of eye pleasing posters and
noises to attract the crowd. Oddly enough, the stall selling fake human body
parts was still present. I wasn’t concerned much though. I was happy, meeting
old friends. My enthusiasm and energy were at par with that young boy who
pleased or angered everyone with his mischiefs. Uncle Kamal, selling Cholas went
as far as to saying, “I see no difference between you and the young Kunal.”
Visiting the carnival after fourteen years was no less exciting than visiting
it for the first time. The twenty six year old boy was no less excited than the
twelve year old.
On a full stomach, I finally
reached the Great Columbus. Everyone always advised me to not go on rides after
eating. It’d be unpleasant and unhealthy; but I never listened – nothing bad
ever happened to me! It was only thrill that I sought, but how could I ever
feel it on an empty stomach? ‘Yeah. Its time’ I thought and paced towards it,
gently nudging people aside and asking them to excuse the way. The place seemed
more crowded than I could remember. With a wide smile I reached the small
ticket booth and turned around. People in black and brown jackets moved in all
directions. A white noise always filled the place and occasionally cries from
gamblers and dogs broke the threshold. I saw a man drop his food on the dusty
ground and then kick it away. Young beggars patrolled the perimeters begging
and occasionally stealing for their living. A child cried faraway and the
shrill voice was enough to raise up the hair on the back of my neck. I looked
at their faces and there was none that I knew. Dark memories awaited this
trigger. I was lost in the carnival once. A three feet tall child looking up to
find strange faces. Some had smiled, some just looked. Young Kunal was scared –
frozen; but mother had found him soon and the warmth of her hug and her tears
melted the ice away. Somehow I felt the same today; perhaps because mother was
never nearby to save me. I did not ride the Columbus – the giant swinging ship
as people often called it. It was painted red and had dragons sculpted on
either end.
The cold wind grew harder and I
raised my coat’s collars. I sat on the railing nearby and looked at kids
boarding the ride. I could be one of them. A twisted tale of time would never
allow a grown man to be the same as a child. Memories are great – the can be
replayed, but not relived. If so, why can’t you forever be in a memory? Why do
we ever have to grow up?
“Dad! This one! We will ride this
one first” said young Kunal jumping up and down.
“Okay. Calm down first. We will
do it. Alright?” he shouted to be heard above the noise “Come, I will get the
tickets.”
With the tickets in hand, they
marched to the puny entrance gate for the Columbus. The gate, the stand, the
booth, all made of grills and metal, erected overnight to appease the excited audience.
The feeling resonated in me and I could see my younger self walking up to the
stand in queue.
The ship seemed too big to Kunal,
perhaps one of the biggest; he had not seen a real ship in twelve years of his
life. ‘Would this Columbus float in the sea?’ he thought to himself. The answer
lay only in his imagination. After shrills of joy and ecstasy they got off the
ride. Heart still pumping fast.
“Hey! Yash!” a hand from faraway
waved to them. Yash moved his head left to right scouting for the source of the
voice. The stranger had come close by now.
“Hey! How are you? It’s been ages
since we met” he said cheerfully “and is that your son? Look how big he has
grown!”
“Raghu! Yes! How are you here?”
said Yash hugging him “Yes, this is the tiny Kunal that you used to take out
for treats.”
“Five years have passed! Wow!”
“Yeah!” The conversation grew
deeper. “Dad” called Kunal, his voice still broken from the shouts and cries.
Yash couldn’t listen – the voice was lost in the din of the crowd.
“Hey. Here!” said a soft voice
from behind.
Kunal turned and to his surprize,
Soha stood beside the vanilla fountain, signalling him to come to her. Kunal
had always liked Soha. She was one of the nicest classmates he had. Kunal
looked up at his father – still engrossed in conversation – and walked away to
her.
“Hi. What are you doing here?
Have you come alone?” he looked at her as she smiled.
“You sound like Frankenstein. My
parents are at the Pulao stall. I told them that I’d be nearby” she
looked pretty in her turquoise frock.
“And they allowed you to?” he was
baffled.
“Of course. I am a responsible
girl” she giggled, “Come, let’s go to the ice cream stall”
“But my father is right there” he
pointed at Yash “He won’t let me go alone.”
“Don’t worry. You are under my
custody”, the glamour in her eyes shone bright, “Look! I also bought some of my
savings.”
“Umm. Okay” he said after some
hesitation. They walked through the crowd holding hands – Soha creating the way
and Kunal following her. Kunal kept smiling the entire way. However, when a
stout man passed through, Kunal lost the touch of her hand. Hit by another
woman, he fell down. He got up fully confused. Soha was nowhere to be seen. The
trigger had been pulled. Past memories began haunting him; the absence of his
mother there and then pushed him further into darkness. Petrified, he stood
there with moistening eyes. ‘Help! Please!’ he whispered to himself when a hand
popped out of the crowd and pulled him by the collar.
“You lose your way too easily. Is
this why your parents never leave you alone? Your mother always drops you and
picks you up at the right time. No parent is that punctual!” she kept
blabbering but paused when she looked at his eyes “Are you crying?” She tried
to control herself but the laughs burst out “Ha haha ha ahaa!”
“Shut up! You don’t know how it
feels to get lost” cried Kunal. Soha calmed down as she felt the intensity of
the situation.
“Okay. I’m sorry. Calm down now
you!” she hugged him and the warmth melted away the ice once more. Kunal rubbed
his eyes with the back of his hands – the left, followed by the right. “Yeah.
It’s okay. Let’s go back to dad!”
“No, you fool, the fun has just
begun! Look, the Ice cream stall!” she pointed at a stall bustling with people.
“It’s too crowded” said Kunal,
but Soha had already held his hand and begun dragging him towards it.
“One double scoop Choco-mint
please” she said looking up at the seller.
The seller – an old grumpy man
with a fat belly – looked left and right into the crowd to find his customer;
Choco-mint was not everyone’s first choice. Then he looked down to his little
customers. “Oh hello. One Choco-min for the beautiful lady; and what for your
gentle friend?” he asked leaning forward.
“The same” he replied.
With their snack, they stood next
to the stall staring at the crowd. The lights were blinding, yet Rigel shone
bright in the distant sky. “You know, you are a nice boy Kunal. But you need to
be more courageous. Your parents won’t be there to help you always” she said
looking at him.
“Oh, they will. They always are.
Aren’t yours?” he replied sipping the cream off his lips.
“I am going to tell you a secret
today. Promise not to let it out” she whispered into his ears.
“Yeah. Sure.”
“You know how I usually stay
silent in the class? It’s not because I dislike others; as you must have heard.
But its simply because I like to stay quiet. Is that a wrong thing to do?”
“I don’t know. But I do things
that I like; so if you like to stay quiet and you do so, there cannot be
anything wrong in it” he replied after some thinking.
“Exactly. Even my parents always
want me to go outside and play with other friends. Where I want to stay in and
read a small book.”
“Well. You can come to my house
and read a book there. My mother will cook delicious Gajar ka Halwa if
you request her”
“Ha! That is very good. You are a
nice guy Kunal; and I’ve always liked you. Never said it before but it is what
it is. You don’t hate me for staying quiet, do you?”
“No. Of course not!” he said
blushing.
“So can I sit with you in the
class from tomorrow?”
“Huh? What?” he said in
excitement. His golden cheeks were warm and red by now.
“Yeah. Please” she tapped his shoulder.
“Yes. You can” he nodded “I’ll
ask Patrick to sit somewhere else.” Melting Ice-cream had travelled down the
cone to touch Kunal’s hand, as though asking him to be eaten right there.
“Wow! Don’t worry, Patrick will
be able to sit back with you from a week later” she smiled “I know you are very
good friends.”
“A week?” he bit half the scoop
off of his cone.
“Yes. My father is a government
employee. He’s being transferred next week and so am I” she sighed.
“What?” his smile turned to a
frown.
“Yeah. So its only a week. Let’s
have a lot of fun by then.”
“Yes! Yes we will!” he laughed.
“Okay, we need to get back to our
parents now. They will start to worry soon.”
“Yes. I’ll see you at the school
then?”
“No. I’ll take you to your dad
first. What if you lose your way?” she chuckled.
“I won’t” he said sternly then
looked at the passing crowd. The people were few but a crowd was a crowd! “I
can go” he said taking a deep breath.
“Shut up you silly” she walked
ahead and signalled him to follow her.
He smiled looking at her walk
away, then he dashed quickly to her. “So will you be going back to your house
now?” she asked.
“No! I still have to ride the
Haunted Coaster.”
“Ew! That scary ride. Someone had
fainted on the ride and was later hospitalised years ago – My father told me”
she shrugged her shoulders.
“Must be a weak man. I am strong.
I will not faint in there.” He said with a thick voice.
“Let’s not take any chances. I
wouldn’t want to lose a nice strong boy there!” she giggled. Kunal smiled,
laughed as he looked at her.
“Look. There’s your father. Still
talking to that man. Go now!” they had reached the fountain.
“Bye then. I’ll see you at school
on Monday; and I am glad that we met today!” he said and dashed to this father;
he turned back on his way and there she stood still waving at him.
“Cool. So I will get the files to
your house tomorrow and we can discuss on it” said Yash with his palm covering
his chin.
“Sounds nice. Will catch you
later then” he hugged Yash “Bye Kunal; you should come with him tomorrow.”
“Bye” replied Kunal and looked at
his father.
“Now, let’s quickly get you to
the haunted ride and go home” said Yash rubbing his hands.
“I don’t want to get on the ride.
Let’s go home” he said calmly.
“What? But didn’t you drag me
here for that very ride; and how did you pants get so dirty?”
“I met a friend dad. Right here;
as you were talking.” Their talks went on for a while before they walked out of
the exit gate. They had to circle around the carnival to reach their car.
I giggled for a second or two
realising this memory. I never knew I had it in the first place. It felt great.
Time passes on, but the feelings remain fresh as always. Delighted, I decided
to walk to the ice cream stall once before leaving. The seller was different,
but I ordered the same – double scoop Choco-mint. Someone tapped my shoulder as
I waited for my order. “Order two” a sweet voice said from the beginning.
“Wow! This is amazing! How are
you?” I said smiling and laughing.
“Cool as always. But you had left
town. Why are you here?” she replied.
“To meet you of course! Have you
come alone again?”
“Yeah. Just the way I like!”
“Here’s your order” said the
young seller as he passed on the Ice cream. “Another one please” I said taking
it from him. Just as I turned around, Soha snatched it away from me “I need to
go right now. My mother will kill me else! Give me your number.” I dictated the
digits; then she rushed away before I could say anything else. I received the
ice cream and then a text that read ‘Your ice-cream debt is now settled.’ I
smiled and looked up at the sky. Rigel still shone bright in the distance.
‘Perhaps growing up is not that sad’ I thought and walked away.
Lovely write up. Felt like taking a long pleasant walk by the Riverside with the breeze blowing, and finally reaching home at the end of it. Halka Ruskin bond vibes.
ReplyDeleteHaha. But you cant take that walk in Delhi though.
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